Tuesday, May 7, 2013
I'm hardly skinny. I still have plenty of weight to spare. I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I know how hard it is to lose weight. Which is why losing weight when I'm not trying to is just creepy.
It isn't so much that I'm a hypochondriac and assume that I have some horrible terminal disease that is causing me to lose weight. However, cancer does run rampant in my family. Neither of my parents made it out of their 50's. I live on pain killers for chronic pain and sometimes I wonder just how much additional pain these may be masking that would otherwise clue me in that other things are wrong.
Sometimes, I do just shed weight, though it is rare. I always gain weight after relationships end and then magically the weight disappears when I'm ready to start dating again. But I've been an emotional basket case these past few weeks. It just makes no sense that my body could be trying to tell me it's time to get back out there.
But the really pathetic thing is that I'm not sure which scenario rattles me more, some unknown disease or dating.
Saturday, May 4, 2013
I guess I can't really decide which would be worst. I'm on the side of the fence with the rest of the people who remain unloved. That's a serious headtrip during my depressive lows. I'm unlovable. I try to bury it but I guess I am a romantic at heart. I believe that everyone has a soulmate in the world, somewhere. I'm realistic enough to realize that not everyone finds theirs. Or is the real question about being loved in return? Unrequited love is an entirely different situation all together.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
I have a love/hate attitude towards romances. Romances require some conflict that keep the lovers apart. I'm not talking about the stupid plots where the conflict is based upon one person getting jealous because their mate talked to a member of the opposite sex and therefore must be cheating. Where one feels deceived because their new love hasn't divulged information about every single aspect of their past. Or even where one person keeps themselves at a disctance, vowing never to let anyone close to them again because they've been hurt once before. Once. Before. Try a lifetime of painful relationships. Where even a trusted family member has betrayed and taken advantange of your trust. A life of so much deception and betrayal that you don't even trust God to not let you down anymore. No, those type of plots are just unimaginative and worthy of my disdain.
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
So what is this situation? *deep breath* This is my third winter without heat. It is true that it is amazing what a person can get used to. My situation didn't develop from just an inability to pay my utilities bill. It is hard to decide where to begin sharing my stoy as there have been many years of stupidity, gullibility, and questionable choices. I suppose that this leg of my story begins around 2001 when I bought my house.
My home used to be two apartments. The neighborhood was rezoned to contain only one family dwellings. The previous owner was in the process of tuning the house back into a single family dweling when his wife became ill and he decided that the house had become an albatross and he was better off selling it than trying to fix it up to code to rent it out.
My home had two gas meters and two electric meters. I received three separate bills from DTE. That math isn't hard to do is it? Four meters, three bills. Two gas bills and one electric bill. I called DTE as soon as I realized this error. Not only am I basically an honest person, but I just don't have the luck for this to not come back and bite me in the butt somehow.
I called DTE monthly, always getting a different customer service representative. I also always got different answers. They varied from "we'll look into it", to "our records show that you only have one electric meter at your address", to one arrogant male who told me "You are most likely being billed correctly but, like most women, you don't know how to read your bill". With every call I made sure to request an employee number so that I could fill out the survey to give them kudos for their excellent assistance. Yes, that was hard to say without laughing.
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Monday, January 3, 2011
Mom Spotted is hosting a giveaway for a $25 gift card for Build-a-Bear Workshop. If you've never been to a workshop, it is definately a must have experience. You pick the stuffed animal you want (more than just bears available) and dress it any way you like. It is great fun and kids enjoy it too hehe.
Click here for details and to enter. Hurry! Contest ends tonight at midnight.